It's so confusin' sometimes to be a tiger

I had an interesting and long session today with my therapist, i will not go into details about what exactly but one of the themes was the whole furry thing.

And yeah, the whole furry thing is... a thing huh, probably it varies a lot between cultures and countries, but there is some shit in common, and yeah that is something kinda expected of couse.

anyways, idk what to feel sometimes about it, i enjoy it, i enjoy the sense of comunity and i have meet so many people that is you know, essential for my life at this point, can't have it other way.

since i got my fursuit, i feel better when i'm inside, playing a lighter, less worried, less stressed version of myself, it has been an amazing exploration of my own self, and i feel it was kinda fundamental in a way for my personal improvement last year.

i can't lie, most of my "i don't want to go to cons" feels like i'm reacting to a traumatic event, and yeah it was, that whole month is something we talked today and it's something that i haven't fully worked yet to a fully resolved point.

this is a pending conversation with my bf, thats for sure, i feel like i have touched the theme before but i think just now i feel like i understand what i'm actually feeling and what actually felt back then.

anyways... i enjoy the thing even if i don't enjoy all the elements around it... and that's fine, i mean i guess that applies to everything.