finally

One of the things i really was waiting to happen, happened this Monday

my ex (and roommate) left.

IM DEEP CLEANING EVERYTHING AND I LOVE IT

and it feels FUCKING awesome, like yeah, to be quite honest, i mostly lived in my room, my boyfriends place and everything in between, mostly not to have to deal with him, just seeing him was enough to make me uncomfortable, to make me kinda angry

This is a great step, first because it was in my checklist, i told him to leave, he never really prepared himself, i had to put pressure, and it happened, took a while but it happened, and since then, and it's just Wednesday, it's nice, feels good, i'm taking over the rest of the apartment, even if i still hate the place, it's slowly becoming mine again for the time being (i still want to leave, the plans are still ongoing)

also with him away that's one thing less i have to worry about the legal/paperwork side of things.

(anyways i was writing this, my mom called,i picked it up, she hung up, i call her back and i get mailbox, why parents always do that?)

i got distracted

Look i'm happy, and i feel good. before he left, he asked me something around the lines (now she is calling back) of being friends or something and i said no, i though at some point that it could be possible, but no, i don't feel like it, i feel like everything just ended on the proper terms, i thanked him for the good moments and for moving on, but there is not much around to keep a friendship, i just really don't like the guy anymore, but i respect him, we have friends and communities together, so in one way or another i guess i will never stop fully seeing him (and i know that most of the people in common we had sides his way because reasons i don't want to go right now).

Anyways, this is how stuff goes

this is a sign, a good sign of the future moving to the present, of projects working, and while i'm tired and my mind is running fast, and i have my boyfriend by my side supporting me and helping me, im tired, but moving, we are.