36

So

i made it to 36 years old this june 11th

not surprised i made it this far or something like that, i mean i expect to last way a lot longer than just 36, but it's an interesting milestone

for one, it's a complete upside down era im living right now from my 35

life at 35 was a bit all over the place, pretty low moments that year, i was a bit lost about who i was, what i was doing, and where i was heading.

shock therapy is a thing that appears when you least expect it

i have talked a lot about what happened since then

my life turned upside down for the best, now this was a birthday i was expecting, hoping and it didn't let me down

Can't thank enough my boyfriend for the effort, the love, the fun he put in making my birthday "vacations" enjoyable, so much, felt like i could just close my eyes and let myself be at my lowest guard and i knew i was protected and safe, he gave me thoughful and pretty gifts i wasn't really expecting

i got a call from my "new family" and i did cry a lot over these days

i cried so much during my birthday

i mean can you blame me?

i can't believe what i lived and what im living rn

and how much people around i been recently getting to know approached to me that day to just say happy birthday

it's nice.

it feels good

and my body still feels like "this is too good, something bad is going to happen to even out stuff" but that voice is slowly going away

i am lucky yes, and it was tons of effort and it's still going to be a lot of it.

tomorrow is my 7th anniversary with him, seven official months, july 11 is going to mark the 1 year anniversary i came here for the first time and told him i was feeling something for him

it's going to be an interesting july, and so far it's a pretty interesting june.