his birthday

Next week is his birthday, a milestone because i was there last year too

his birthday was kinda messy and a chaos to me last year, we were on a complete different phase of the relationship, i was still freshly kinda suffering for what happened a bit before, what i call the pawstral incident, life was different back then, other experiences, other vibes, other moment in time

this year is different, because for me, we are home living together

and that whole has been an interesting experience so far, i feel like 5 months or so of living together is not really a big place to say that i know what it means to live with him, but it paints a not bad image of everything so far.

in that sense we are kinda apart, i moved from my parents place and city when i was 25, like 11 years ago, 11 years ago

11 years ago, that's is not a small time, a lot of shit has happened since then, i started sharing a room with someone i didn't know to now here, living in this beautiful place

he is experiencing the first era, my first five months 11 years ago

and i have the chance i wish i had, like of not having to be a bad first experience after leaving your parents house

and im not doing it because of interest, or because im a "sugar daddy" or whatever, i'm doing it because two big reasons

i love him, i see a future on us together

and i feel like supporting him in this era of his life is a beautiful chance for someone in life, to give support and a roof

and while i do not expect anything in exchange,  i see him doing it by just being him, by working harder, by supporting me, by helping me

so finally, is not just one sided and yeah its good

anyways, his birthday last year was flashy and big, we did it on the roof of my old apartment, lots of people

now, idk what his plan is, maybe something small with family and friends? i plan on making a cake for him, i plan on gifting him some cool little thing and probably cry idk

Life is good, i feel in peace most of the time, i have ups and downs like everyone, i sometimes just need to cry alone, eat something, drink a beer and i feel better

i'm learning so much about him

im learning to handle him being busier, probably traveling more and me staying far away from him, that means good, stuff is going on

but it's a hard process of learning and just handling it

we are different and i know that

love you bb, happy bday

a tiger, that tigers. kiwa.