The blog from the past

So i went tru the two hard disks i had from my old PC that i got rid of last year, both 4tb disks half full each

i did found something pretty interesting, a DB dump for the wordpress blog i had between 2013 and 2018ish

That blog was under the domain with my name last name, the "real" me, but i never talked about me like i did here, i was younger sure, and less worried about life in general in the sense of "who cares about the author, let's write about what the author does" kinda vibe.

that blog wasn't much, i was trying to get to be "known" you know, when you write your name under everything because eh i guess ego to be popular or something, can't even wrap my head about it now tbh

Leo wrote about machines, kiwa writes about himself

the contrast is funny, the name last name domain was just for stuff, this one that is my "alterego" or "furry" identity is where im mostly just me.

No feelings, no relationships, i had to get an earth shattering earthquake in my life to see the other side of myself.

my life around 2013-2018 was mostly getting into the working world, making money, buying stuff that in that point was still kinda cheap but old, i documented guides on how to install vga ports on tvs, how to crack recovery cds, router hacking and stealing 3g internet from providers using weird vpn procedures and stuff like that.

i did get joy and i had skill on those, i know that, but the machines acted as a stand for myself, and i guess that's fine, it's how i worked and how i wanted to present myself online

i was the fix computer fix cd, upload thing online, angry kinda guy

because i wrote on a post, "here is the iso, do you need help? not" eh.. idk.

I did had a series there, it was called "reviviendo" (reviving) stuff, like scsi hdd, an ip camera, a couple of laptops, i was fixing and bringing things back from the dead, or at least, seeing if i could, even in that clean place where if i failed i didn't post it, or if something was too hard, well i didn't post it anyways.

It's funny how all the stuff, well most of it, it's gone, the compaq contura i had from back then, gone, that specific 200lx, also gone, the packardbell laptop, also gone

but at the same time, i been doing deep cleanup and inventory of my stuff

and i have 3 compaq conturas, 5 hp 200lx, and stuff like that

i guess if there is a funny pattern there, it probably says something.

Life and things are changing, just like a 36 yo laptop, im getting older, but not in the "im useless and crumbling" in difference to a 486 laptop, im getting wiser

that's all i can get from it

I enjoy the stuff, don't get me wrong, i enjoyed that blog, that's why i had it

but also i enjoy this little space too, i enjoy exploring my mind and my feelings here

i don't expect anyone to read any of it, if it happens, it happens, but i don't care

it's the real me now, the tiger, the human, the kiwa, the leo

all the same at this point, at my peak real.

kiwa out